A beautiful journey :)

So this is going to be quite the blog that will actually give all of you a little bit of insight as to who I am, what I want and what I do all at the same time. It's the beautiful journey that not only has made Me truly realize what it is I want out of a fetishy relationship but what I NEED in a long term personal relationship. It HAS to be a perfect mixture of both and I truly think I have found that with a boy I met back in July on Niteflirt. For the sake of his privacy I will refer to him as "A" in this blog. So a little preface to this blog and what I was searching for before A came along. I have dabbled in BDSM for many years and found that no vanilla relationship I had was ever truly fulfilling without any type of fetish involved. Up until March of this year I was in a relationship and had finally had enough of just co-existing. Thats no type of relationship. So he attempted to give Me an ultimatum... Domming or him.... well here I am if that tells you anything. I packed My stuff and never looked back. That is when My journey began to find the perfect guy for Me. So here I am now. 

So A came to Me on Niteflirt in July... July 3rd to be exact and wanted to be a cigarette bitch. He has an insane smoking fetish and loves everything about it. So we exchanged emails on niteflirt and I sent him PTV's of Me smoking and all the good stuff. Ultimately I am a FinDomme and My fetish is money among a wide array of other things. At that time I wasn't doing anything unless it involved money. So the following day he asked for My email and that was the beginning of our journey. There hasnt been a day that we havent exchanged emails since. 

Over the course of the next month or so I learned about him as he learned about Me and I discovered that he was ultimately looking for the same type of real life relationship that I was. The perfect mixture of fetish/vanilla which is the only way that he will be truly fulfilled. Now A has a vast array of fetishes... you name it and he probably likes it... minus anything pain related which is quite alright with Me. 

So through the month of August we emailed back and forth and had planned for Me to come to NYC to see him and finally meet the face behind all these emails. It was all a blur to Me to be honest. They typically say when something seems to good to be true.... it is. Well things happened and I ended up not going to NYC at the end of August like previously planned. Not any fault of his... its was MY fault and I wont go into that here. But it made him question the nature of our relationship. I was quite honestly devastated. I had spent the last 2 months literally emailing back and forth sometimes up to 500 emails a day... and all of a sudden it all changed. Well anyone that knows Me... knows this bitch doesnt give up easily... if ever. So I told him no... things arent happening like this and attempted to fix things. I found out that My girlfriend was going to NYC to visit her family and attend a wedding so I told her that I was going with her. I was meeting this boy hell or high water and NOTHING was standing in My way. 

So the following weekend... The first week of September, I was making that usually dreadful 8 hour drive to NYC. This time it was the most intense drive I had ever been on. I was actually going to meet this boy I had been emailing for over 2 months now. So we met on a Friday evening and had dinner somewhere in Times Square and for Me.... it was a beautiful day. For him... something was still not right and I didnt figure out exactly what it was until about a month ago. Determination and persistence is something that I definitely have... and I dont give up on something I want. EVER. So I left NYC questioning Myself and wondering what the hell it was that still wasnt right for him. We continued emailing back and forth after I got back and sometime in the beginning of October.... I figured it out. So that leads Me to the present day! Its been a wonderful journey and I will tell you all about how things with A and I are now. 

Like I said... some time in October I figured out what it was that bothered him about Me and I have been working to fix that. Its something so simple and to be honest... to make a simple change is totally worth it to have the most amazing and promising future a Princess like Me could ever ask for. So a little bit about A... He is 52 and works an extremely stressful job that requires him to work 7 days a week almost all the time whether it be at home or at the office, he's very responsible and totally in control of his whole life. So we all know that most of the guys with these types of personalities and responsibilities, crave to lose all control when they come home. It's no different for A. When in the right mindset A is the absolute most submissive boy I have EVER come across, and is the reason he is My #1 Bitch to this day. There is a lot I expect out of him and he has done every single thing asked of him and begged for more. 

A and I's interactions in the beginning started out as FinDom and fetishy type stuff but has evolved over time to something that not even I could have imagined 6 months ago. Quick breakdown of the main things that A and I do and what will happen in the future. Chastity (mental at this point), DREAMLOVER (my absolute favorite thing in the world), Feminization, and humiliation which is part of the reason I am writing this blog in the first place... to tell all of you lovely people all about My little bitch and all the wonderful things he does to make his Princess smile. Simply put, A wants and needs total control after his workday is done... and this Princess absolutely loves totally controlling boys lives. 

So in the beginning before I ever went to NYC I had showed A the Dreamlover website and the things it could do in total training of a male. To this day... dreamlover drives him absolutely crazy. The part that drives him the most insane... it actually can ruin his little useless dick to the point that he quite literally may never get to use it again. He will be locked up for good anyhow, never to be allowed release for the rest of his god given life, so whats it matter right? My thoughts exactly. So not only does A know that he will never cum again, he will be my little bitch in all aspects. From taking My strap on... to being my frilly little house bitch. Right now at the moment... A has totally impressed Me most recently with his dedication to not one but 2 aspects of our relationship. First... A has begun transforming a bedroom in his house to a complete and total slutty little bedroom. Here is a picture of the things he has in his slut bedroom. This is where he actually sleeps right now. 

Yes that is quite prissy right? Well A is a little prissy bitch. Has a great sense of style, that is for sure. Next for his little slut bedroom is who knows... I have told him that he not only has to buy Cosmo monthly, now he has to buy Glamour magazine as well.... and read them both! Thanksgiving weekend he will be painting this slutty bedroom a bright HOT PINK!! I cant wait to see how it turns out. His hectic work schedule has stopped him from making that dramatic change, but it will get done. He knows better than to disappoint his Princess. Actually A has a girly name. Keeping with the trend of "B" names that I use for all my little bimbo bitches... A is also Breanna. I think that is kinda where the change began taking place for him. I cant tell you exactly when it took place because I truly dont know. I do know that each and every single day, this little whores dedication and devotion to being the perfect little bitch for Me increases. 

Now A and I have been working on getting him skinny so he can wear sexy little slutty outfits and look as much like a girl as he can. So A has went to the extreme to please Me. He has been walking for hours and hours on end on his treadmill now that it is getting colder out. He even went as far as buying a FitBit pedometer to track all the steps he is taking. His minimum to eat breakfast before he goes to work is 5k steps or about 2.5 miles. He is also not allowed to have a day under 10k steps or Princess wont be happy. A wont disappoint Princess. Its not an option. We actually just today came up with the idea that one day a week, I picked Saturdays since he isnt at the office, that he will do 20k steps or 10miles. This little bitch is so eager to please Me that he had over 7k steps this morning by the time I woke up. LOL. 

Now A's diet is quite a bit different these days as well. Its actually the same exact diet I am on almost. So A not only walks his little ass off for Me everyday, he also takes diet pills, takes vitamins, drinks lots of water, high protein/low carbs, and only is allowed to eat when he hits his goals for the day. How's that for a diet? This little bitch loves every single minute of starving for My evil pleasure. He knows there is a goal to hit in the end. He is to get to a Size 30 by Christmas, and boy oh boy is he well on his way. I actually am truly proud of the progress and changes he has made thus far. It's totally impressive the lengths he will go to, to make his Princess happy. 

So that is the short version of A and I's little journey that we have been on and hopefully there is much more in the future. There is a lot more to our story and as I said, the end result of the nature of our relationship is totally different than I will ever have with any of you other losers. So if you thought there could ever be any more than just online and occasional real time serving if you have earned it, think again fuckwads. Something A doesn't know and will find out when he reads this blog, is I plan on updating here about his progress and our journey together as time goes on. Maybe once or twice a month. He continues to make huge strides in his efforts to please Me and I honestly couldnt be happier than I am right now. He is the motivation I need throughout the day, just as I am his, and to Me that is absolutely perfect. 

Until next time losers.... 

Nourishing a D/s relationship and ending it properly

Yes that is right, a D/s relationship takes a lot of nourishing to make it fulfilling for both parties involved. Recently, here and many other places I have seen some repulsive things happening to some good boys I have come across in My time online here, and it utterly disgusts Me to be honest. So I am going to go into that a little bit here in this blog. I previously had written a blog about "Truth in Ownership" and this is somewhat an extension to that blog. 

So W/we go through this whole Under Consideration period and make sure the boy W/we are going to be owning is exactly what W/we need and want in the relationship that is being built. This relationships foundation is built on trust, loyalty, and most of all COMMUNICATION... on BOTH parts. Not just the boy... or the Domme for that matter. It is a 2 way street in any relationship. Just like it is in D/s relationships. So W/we get through the whole Under Consideration phase and the boy is now OWNED. How exciting right? Of course it is. He has shown his dedication and devotion to Us and made it through all the trials and tribulations that We put him through to get to that point. So W/we both feel great about the strides that the boy has made to prove himself to Us, now it's time to actually maintain this relationship that has been established and continue to make it grow and flourish so that it is long lasting. 

So how do W/we do that you ask? Well there are many different types of boys in this fetish W/we know as Financial Domination. Not all of them are the same and not all of them need the same things. So it's important to pay attention to what made the relationship get to the ownership stage in the beginning and also pay attention to the things this boy has told you he wants to explore in the future. We should also respect the hard limits this boy has told Us that he just doesn't want to explore. So W/we go through setting tasks, taking personalized photos, making little videos, cam sessions, restrictions and a host of other things that keeps the relationship going. The boy becomes more addicted and needy of course. They may begin to message you more often and ask about/need more things to keep this relationship going. Its key to pay attention to these needs and at the same time... SET LIMITS so they arent invading your personal space. So set aside maybe an hour or two a week for a cam session or to make them a video, or even just type out an email with a scenario in it that is something they have spoken about in the past, set aside some messenger time or whatever else works for both of you. These things are key to maintaining this relationship. If any of you Ladies are like Me... I have a shit ton of fans, worshipers, UC, and owned boys. It can become very time consuming. I understand that. We still have an obligation to nurture the relationships We have taken on. 

Now with that being said.... There is also another side to this. What do We do if life gets in the way and We no longer have the time to give to the relationship anymore?  Well there are many ways that this situation can be addressed. You can handle it many different ways but there are WRONG ways to go about this. Simply disappearing and cutting off communication with this boy is NOT the right way to go. So you are still accepting his tributes and he is sitting there hoping that it will make you say something? Is that right?.... Absolutely not. You as the Domme that made the same commitment that this boy made to you... NEED to do one of two things. You need to sit and have a talk with this boy and let him know that at this point in time, there are lots of things going on in life, you have no time to devote to the relationship anymore and help him move on. Or you can actually do the thing that any experienced and well versed Domme would do.... HELP HIM FIND ANOTHER DOMME!!! These two things are the ONLY way to do this right. Simply disappearing and not letting this boy know anything.... is not acceptable. You made a commitment to this boy as well. So you as a good Domme.... would take the steps to make sure that his emotional state is ok and that he is able to move on in either circumstance. Yes, you may have things going on in life... but you still need to get these boys to a good place. They have become dependent on you for guidance and direction. Disappearing is not only not right... but it shows what type of person you truly are. 

The moral to this story because I have been seeing this happen all over the internet recently, is to make sure that you are seeing the relationship through.... beginning to end. You leave the scene for awhile or for good and that is fine. At times We all have to step back for a bit, have things that happen in life that We have no control over, or just have no interest in domination anymore, whatever it may be that is stopping you from being the Domme you once were before. You still have an obligation to end the relationships properly. There is no excuse for doing anything but the right thing. 

Until next time....